I didn’t want to write smth in this dairy, but... And I am alone with it. Let it be this way. I feel pain when see……..but it doesn’t matter. This is my fault and my big mistake nevertheless I cannot do anything with myself. I am stupid. Let it be this way and this world. Openness is a mistake and the beginning of being undefended. The person stops feel pain when there are lot of it. Everything in one day, in one morning is too much for one person. I need close my heart, close my sole, because the person does not need to have these useless articles… But how can I do that? I will think… Were standing and failed…. I hate myself… Fanny-man continues laughing…